Lovely blog, did I already tell you that!?! lol And thank you, thank you! That's a big compliment because I do know some ppl have told me that they think the actual piercing is ugly. But I've researched, and I like it! Just debating on WHEN to do it. If I had my OWN business going, I'd do it in a heartbeat!
Why thank you! lol and yes you have mentioned it but its nice to hear it again! Yea some piercings are weird but depending on the person, it can look really good!. My friends from school have all sorts of piercings, i cant even name them all but their piercings look like they belong on their faces. One of them has cheek piercings and they flatter her facial structure, along with like 5 other peircings lol! But yea I think the peircing would compliment your face! Not everybody can do that, and then you have the ppl who do too much. smh
So, tomorrow morning i will be on my way back to school to start my sophomore year of college. It was a very hard first year for me; bittersweet is a better way to put i guess. Made some rash decisions that i wish i had thought through for a second longer. it really would have made a difference honestly. but i cant do anything about it now except to learn from those mistakes. Wont go in detail of course but they are mistakes that i have to live with. But anyways, I have a few goals that i want to focus on this semester and I really want to achieve these goals to their fullest potential.
Establish better study habits: Since i have started college i have realized first hand that the work is alot more complex and fast paced. And i have tried my hardest to accommodate to that fast paced learning in college, and my study habits have improved but i have soooooooo much more habits to establish. They really can get alot better and i am going focus on developing my study habits to where i feel comfortable and i can get things done.
Stop trying to be involved in everything: Boy oh boy do i realize NOW how important that is to know. That was one of my faults in freshman year. I tried to do too much. For all of you incoming freshman and high schoolers, pay attention to this please: College can be an amazing time in your life. there are so many opportunities that are thrown in your face and many of you eager future college students will be pressured to get involved. Please please please wait to get involved. Adapting to college life is a hassle all in its own. Trying to get involved in time consuming activities and clubs can make you or break you. What i mean by this is that, it can teach you how to manage your time better and prioritize your responsibilities, or it can completely throw you off focus. So if you see activities or clubs and organizations that interest you when you start your college experience, just wait, and if you decide to be stubborn like me, and do it anyway, remember, you are at college to get an education and academics come first. Freshman year is the hardest year you will have in college and adapting to college life is essential to your progression and efficiency in obtaining your desired degree.
Worry about yourself first: I am a very kind and caring person and if you are a dear friend to me, whether if i have known you for 5 years or just a semester, i will go above and beyond for my friends, like literally. Its a blessing and a curse forreal. I honestly cant help it. Its in my nature to be a nurturer. This behavior that i am known for has made me a bit disappointed over the years because I would do these kind gestures and favors for friends and other ppl i THOUGHT were worthy of my kindness, and i wouldnt get shit in return. I would brush it off but that shit builds up inside you and i would feel like im a loser because nobody was ever kind enough to return the gesture. But i have learned in my experiences freshman year that its not just me. Not everybody is as nice as i am and its because they are only looking out for themselves. It wasnt because they didnt like me, (or maybe it was, i honestly dont give two shits no way) it was because they are only looking out for themselves. And now its time for Dziko to look out for Dziko, and DZIKO ONLY. Only i can earn the grades i deserve. Only i can improve my relationships with the people around me. Only i am responsible for the responsibilities that are given to me. Only i can get my ass in trouble, and i am the only one i can blame for those poor decisions that i make. Because at the end of the day, the only person who will have my back is myself. I have some awesome friends and family, but they arent responsible for me. I am responsible for me. As a young adult, i find this increasingly important to keep in mind as i develop into a mature, independent, responsible, successful adult.
Take better care of yourself physically, mentally, and emotionally: Like i stated above, i am a nurturing person to OTHERS. I have a nasty habit of leaving my concerns on the back burner and that has caught up with me. One of my motto’s that i live by is “in order to be able to better help others, you must better yourself first.” I cant get good grades if my mentality or physical health isnt right. You wouldnt go to a hair salon and let a hair stylist do your hair if their hair isnt right, right? So i believe that i must establish better health routines and habits so i can focus more on the goal at hand. I want to badly get in the best shape i possibly can and i want to take full advantage of the gym at school and get in better shape. Not only will losing weight make me look better and feel better, it will dramatically help my PCOS. Women with PCOS have and incredibly hard time losing weight and losing weight is the exact thing that will make dealing with the disease easier. But more on that later. Having a better attitude about things going on around me will really help my mental and emotional health. I need to learn how to stop dealing with everything by myself. I have such a hard time expressing myself especially when things bother me and it does so much harm than good. So instead of keeping things bottled inside, i need to learn to speak up and vent more, to a friend, family or tumblr. It can not stay inside me because if i kirk, ima kirk hard and it aint pretty.
Put yourself out there: I am painfully shy but it has gotten a lot better over the past couple years. Yet i still find myself timid around those that are unfamiliar. Im already intimidating looking as it is, so i need to make myself more approachable. Im always complaining about how im always getting ignored or how ppl dont really notice me. Its not like ppl can see me! Im damn near 6 ft and im pretty thick so you cant miss me. Confidence is the key and i need more of it. Alot more of it. I cant wait forever for someone to approach me, so i need to learn to make the first move and to initiate conversations. (SMH easier said than done)
So here are some long term goals that i am giving myself and i cant wait to start making improvements on them. Its a new year. Time to start fresh. (well, kinda. lol)