Can you see the difference yet? lolz—
According to the scale I’m down to around 280 lbs. Which would mean I’ve lost almost 30 lbs since a bit after the new year (309 lbs).
I should be happy right? I mean, I am. I’m just a bit skeptical. Okay really skeptical. Even though I’ve been extremely motivated and determined to change my eating and over all living habits, shifted the way I eat, increase my workouts beyond what I’m comfortable with, I still don’t believe I have honestly lost that much weight.
I mean yeah, its been almost 4 months since I’ve started this round of trying to lose weight, and Ive been challenging and pushing myself to stick to it. Maybe because Im so used to losing like 10 lbs and then getting cocky and binging on food like its a reward. Im honestly trying though…
But I mean I think I am seeing results too. I can see it a little in my collar bone and my hands. Random right? Idk. Im trying so hard not to focus on seeing results but I just really want to be confirmed that all my hard work is paying off. Ehhh, Im trippin.
Okay so this wasnt supposed to turn into a whiny post or anything, I just wanted to document any progress made so far. And the bottom line is that no matter how much progress Ive made now, I really want to make sure that I make a significant life change by New Year 2013. I dont want to ring in the new year on a sour note like I did 2012. But 2012 has been good to me though.